*Louis looks me over "I don't think I've ever seen you this upset.." I lift my head up looking at him* I've never been this upset.. *I slur a bit and he sighs "How about we get you up into bed?" I shake my head* I haven't been able to sleep since she left.. *I slur again and he shakes his head "Come on, we're gonna get you to try now.." He grabs my arms and helps me up and helps me up the stairs* -Niall xx
*my mom kept telling me a few things that I’ve told her and I had a big smile on my face* he is such a sweetheart *i sighed looking down* now I feel bad for leaving *i groan* “no love do not feel bad it’s not your fault or anyone’s it’s the fact that you can remember that you’re here right now”
*He sighs and goes to the fridge and gets me a bottle of water "Drink this." I nod and I take a sip and I rub my head* I don't know what to do.. I want her to come home, but I don't want her to not want to be here.. *I mumble and he nods "You have to let her figure it out on her own.." I nod sighing* -Niall xx
*my mom started out telling me about when I first told her about how I met you* I spilled tea all over him oh my god ofcourse my klutzyness would embarrass myself *i blushed and then she went on about how I freaked out about you being famous*
*"When was the last time you ate?" He asks and I shrug and I go to drink the last of my beer and he takes it from me. "You're gonna be sick if you keep it up" I sigh and I look at him* I want her to come back.. *I mumble quietly and he sighs "I know, Niall.."* -Niall xx
*i finally calm down and me and my mom sit on the couch* please tell me everything you can think of that I’ve told you about him *i tell my mom*
*I rest back against the couch and he says "Lou texted me tellin' me to come talk to you.. She said you look like shit." I nod and he looks around seeing all the beer bottles "Have you eaten or drank anything other than beer?" I look down and he sighs as I don't answer* I'm not hungry.. *I mumble* I don't want anything.. -Niall xx
*i continued to a cry for a few more minutes when my mom came down and hugs me too* it’s all my fault he’s drunk right now
*I hear a knock at the door and I sigh* Come in.. *I mumble and I look over as I see Louis coming in and he sighs "You alright?" I shake my head and I sit up on the couch* No.. *I mumble and slur* I'm not.. -Niall xx
*my dad hugs me and I started to cry into his chest* I don’t know what to do *i say sobbing* I don’t want to live a fake life anymore. I just want to know what’s real
*I drank another beer before I went and laid down on the couch. I groan running my hand through my hair* Why does everything have to suck? *I slur talking to myself and I lay there staring at the ceiling* I want her to come home.. -Niall xx
*my dad sees me as I’m making tea* “you look like shit” *he says and I sigh looking at him* thanks dad. *i say groaning* I feel like shit for not being able to remember anything. I can’t even remember my own wedding or birth or my daughter or even being oregnany with her *i say sniffling*
*names his child Oscar*
"Would you like to hold h-"
"Say it like we rehearsed it."
*sighs* "And the Oscar goes to..."
no one-sided friendships/relationships in 2014 y’all. if they ain’t tryna be an active participant in your life, fuck em.
Becoming a cold hearted bitch wasn’t really what I planned to do with my life but here I am